I’ve always wondered what keeps me from doing certain things that I know I want to do. I guess I can chalk it up to my willingness to hold on to how I know life is right now instead of trying to move in a better direction. I never could deal with change very well; I gravitate towards the past too much.
I realize now that I can’t run from the fact life is different now and requires a different direction. There are goals I want to reach that will never happen if I don’t change. I know that such a decision may require new sacrifices, but it’s time to set things straight.
Consistency is key! No matter how many times I fall off track, the important part is getting back on ASAP. My dreams are counting on my ability to do this. It’s never too late to chase a dream, and I’m chasing mine now.
(thank you honey for everything. I love you!!!)
I honestly hit a new low, and I can’t understand how I let it get this far. Every time I try to pick it up, it just goes back down. I’m so frustrated with myself. I need to figure this shit out now. I need to pull it together. Stop running from the problems and face them head on. It’s time to put my life back together.
The Company at Prelude 2010
Honestly, this weekend has been so amazing. I fucking love my CompanyFAM. You guys are so dope, and I’m blessed to be a part of a such a strong team. Back to back titles!!!!
Big thanks to Pat for everything he has done for us. We all wish you were there to share the stage with us, but we know you were there in spirit. This weekend was for you!
The Company at World of Dance 2010
Ever since Macau, I’ve been in work mode. It is so hard to get a day off from work right now, especially since I took 2 weeks off. I need to find people who are willing to switch shifts with me so I can head over to intensive and work on my dance. On the other hand, AK is doing well. I’m happy with the response we’ve received this summer; I hope each person that came through left the workshop inspired. I find myself diving deeper into my craft and exploring different ideas, but at the same time realizing what I need to improve on. I’m grateful for the opportunity I received throughout the year with the Company as well as the big opportunity from the Macau trip; I’m even more hungry now than when the year started. Now I just need to find a way to get my ass to intensive.
As far as everything else is concerned, life is great. I’ve spent so much time with Pam this past week; it’s amazing. I’m so lucky to have her in my life. She inspires me so much and makes me feel like I can do anything. I honestly don’t know where I would be without her. I hope she knows just how much she means to me. I love her so much!
Next stop: DISNEYLAND!
Long practice tonight, but we got everything done. The team really worked it tonight and I’m proud of them. After this weekend, it’s time to step things up. I have a lot of things going on in my head and it’s about time I make them reality.
welcome to 2010. a time of new beginnings and new memories. 2009 became a period of growth for me. i realized a lot of what i’ve been doing wrong through the years, and i just need to take all that and turn it around. i’m excited for this year. i feel like i can accomplish a lot as long as i put in the work. i have a new philosophy for this year. it’s time i start caring about my thoughts than let the thoughts of other affect me. here we go!